Log: Dec. 26, xxx4: Planning
Report on meds for my health:
So far they seem to be working. They are a complex creation from a Master Bio-engineer. and are actually based on a chemical found running in Scar'let's blood. We managed to speak with a doctor who had been with her when she arrived "here" from another dimension!! A very dangerous journey. The drug running through her system was to keep her body from degenerating on the journey as she was one of the fer not in stasis for the journey. It was experimental and does have side effects as it lingers. It does slowly work its way out of the blood stream. Zabrak are very different though from humans. I do not have enough Zabrak in me for this drug to linder in my system and it seem to wear off quickly. Or maybe we just don't have the complete chemical combination. I know we don't have the dosage nor the timing right. I spent a couple days disoriented and/or asleep. And when it wears off, I am in grave danger as my body begins to shut itself down. I am staving off death. But for how long?
Rites of Passage:
I was more stable last night ans was let free to do some research at the Library. I wanted more information about the Zabrak Tai'Shan and wanted to compare my knowledge against further research about cultural activities. Maxell came on my comm hoping to meet up with me and discuss the Rites of Passage. Given to a child at pubery, these are simpler challenges with not too much danger. Given to an adult, though, and the risks are suddenly great. No one is worried that if a child loses the trust of the elder that they will kill them, because as a child they lack both the strength and the skill. But and adult has these. The rites will help one face themselves and be stronger in spirit and mind for it. I would hope Brem would want to go through them, but I have yet to really discuss it with him. I will do so later today.
The larger problem is for when Scar'let and Deomo go through them. They are stronger and more dangerous than a child, as is Brem. The risk of any of these three killing the guide is very high. More dangerous still for themselves is the Feral Nature. If they become lost during the rite to the Feral, they could be trapped there or kill others, or even themselves. They could fail the challenges and be lost to us or dead. It is dangerous.
All three have different things to face. All three will face themselves and their greatest troubles within. Brem, he would need to face some of his past and the challanges of trust for today. He will be challenged to work in a team and be the balancing force. Scar'let's skills will be pushed to their limits and she will need to trust in those she normally would not, also, she has yet to face the trauma's of her past which are a constant block in her being able to more forward in her tai'shan bond. She does not trust herself. Deomo is in a similar situation. He need to be pushed to work with others and have them under his care, be responsible for keeping them alive. He too needs to face the death of his father and who actually did it. He too does not trust himself.
I hope. My greatest hope is the Brem emerges more self-confident that he can handle any situation and that his past will not hinder him or us. I hope that Scar'let will have greater control over herself and be able to be the priestess she is training to be. And, I pray that Deomo will come to understand and accept himself and know his goals more clearly, discover and understand the man beyond the feral.
I need more rest and another dose of meds. But i will record more on the Rites of Passage when I wake up.
So far they seem to be working. They are a complex creation from a Master Bio-engineer. and are actually based on a chemical found running in Scar'let's blood. We managed to speak with a doctor who had been with her when she arrived "here" from another dimension!! A very dangerous journey. The drug running through her system was to keep her body from degenerating on the journey as she was one of the fer not in stasis for the journey. It was experimental and does have side effects as it lingers. It does slowly work its way out of the blood stream. Zabrak are very different though from humans. I do not have enough Zabrak in me for this drug to linder in my system and it seem to wear off quickly. Or maybe we just don't have the complete chemical combination. I know we don't have the dosage nor the timing right. I spent a couple days disoriented and/or asleep. And when it wears off, I am in grave danger as my body begins to shut itself down. I am staving off death. But for how long?
Rites of Passage:
I was more stable last night ans was let free to do some research at the Library. I wanted more information about the Zabrak Tai'Shan and wanted to compare my knowledge against further research about cultural activities. Maxell came on my comm hoping to meet up with me and discuss the Rites of Passage. Given to a child at pubery, these are simpler challenges with not too much danger. Given to an adult, though, and the risks are suddenly great. No one is worried that if a child loses the trust of the elder that they will kill them, because as a child they lack both the strength and the skill. But and adult has these. The rites will help one face themselves and be stronger in spirit and mind for it. I would hope Brem would want to go through them, but I have yet to really discuss it with him. I will do so later today.
The larger problem is for when Scar'let and Deomo go through them. They are stronger and more dangerous than a child, as is Brem. The risk of any of these three killing the guide is very high. More dangerous still for themselves is the Feral Nature. If they become lost during the rite to the Feral, they could be trapped there or kill others, or even themselves. They could fail the challenges and be lost to us or dead. It is dangerous.
All three have different things to face. All three will face themselves and their greatest troubles within. Brem, he would need to face some of his past and the challanges of trust for today. He will be challenged to work in a team and be the balancing force. Scar'let's skills will be pushed to their limits and she will need to trust in those she normally would not, also, she has yet to face the trauma's of her past which are a constant block in her being able to more forward in her tai'shan bond. She does not trust herself. Deomo is in a similar situation. He need to be pushed to work with others and have them under his care, be responsible for keeping them alive. He too needs to face the death of his father and who actually did it. He too does not trust himself.
I hope. My greatest hope is the Brem emerges more self-confident that he can handle any situation and that his past will not hinder him or us. I hope that Scar'let will have greater control over herself and be able to be the priestess she is training to be. And, I pray that Deomo will come to understand and accept himself and know his goals more clearly, discover and understand the man beyond the feral.
I need more rest and another dose of meds. But i will record more on the Rites of Passage when I wake up.
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